| OH! WHAT HURT. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2009|03:24 pm] |
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[Feeling sad officially]
Th torture inside,
no one knows,
no one ever knows.
Keeping emotions quiet.
mixed emotions twirling in randomness,
that makes one feel so awful.
the agony is so hard to let go.
Th hurt made a scar inside.
it seems so lonely and uncared for...
emptiness makes it worse. (impermanence)
the silence feels so cold.
painful.
it's hard to fit into this world
everyone's trying hard
some succeeded,
yet most failed.
pityful ain't it?
till i finally find my own identity.
don't i know me?
th abandoned.
don't worth anyone.
alone.
just keep carefully inside,
don't let any to get in.
taking a shield,
protecting.
Just to avoid getting hurt once more.
Is this th way?
Seems more like running away...
hiding for cover,
to a warm and comfortable one,
that wound a broken heart.
Keeping low profile,
till th heart gets better... |
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| Promote: Junk-Craze |
[Dec. 2nd, 2009|03:45 pm] |
Okay, i know this has been ages since i promised Amelyn to promote her blogshop here. So yeah, here's th promise i've given you when we had chinese class together a few months back. haha! Sorry for delaying this till now cos' each time i log in to my blog, i totally forget. (oops) :b Stickynote to everyone: Do you have any cravings & craze
for really chiq clothings and cool accessories?
♥♥♥
Do drop by at junk-craze website to check it out!
Th blogshop web and most of th items selling are specially designed by Amelyn for her customers to enjoy her creation. (:  Do support! http://www.junk-craze.blogspot.com/ Credits for th picture: Th owner of Junk-craze wishing spell series. Disclaimer: The author of this blog is not responsible for this promotion. If readers purchase a product or service based upon this promotion from the author's blog, reader must take action with that company to resolve the issue, not the author of this blog. |
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| HIGHLY RECOMMENDED TO ALL! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2009|02:32 pm] |
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Up early today at 8.30am without any alarm is seriously a miracle to me. Yes, i slept early last night! It's awesome!
Had a fantabulous day yesterday with Liqi! At first, i was really reluctant to watch Mulan. All th movies now are so gross except for 2012 & th upcoming New Moon which is coming out tmr. However, 2012 starts only at 7+pm. What a bummer! After much persuation by Liqi because there's nothing else for us to choose(there's practically all th cartoon movies left about christmas -.-) we decided to watch th chinese film.
It's seriously an eye opener for me. SERIOUSLY. I didn't even imagine it to be nice in th first place. My expectations was just about Mulan and those period type of movies in chinese that makes one sleep.
Best movie watched this whole year.
Rate: 5 SHINY STARS. ^^
I cried once, Liqi cried 5 times! It's a really emotional movie. Half th time i was really frighten when they had war each time with th enemies. Liqi was going gaga over th guy who love mulan! *laughs*
Well, i prefered Jacky Chan's son inside which didn't have a good ending. He died ! AWWWW, was so freaking sad. But he was so brave!
Bloodshed, Death, Love, Family kinship, Close Friendship, Filial piety, Loyalty, Sacrifices, Protective, Bravery, Hero & Heroine, Lost, Gained, Recognition, Emotional.
Do catch this movie even though you're not a fan of chinese movies or Mulan. I wasn't at first but now i am! (saying it proudly) It triggered my luv for Vicky Zhao once again since th last time i watched :
(Princess returning pearl & Romance in th rain)
So after watching th movie we went to city link, marina square and Plaza Sing to shop. URGH. BOMBED MY WALLET WITH A BIG HOLE.
Peace out to y'all! Off for bath, dinner and buddhist night class.
PS: I CAN SERIOUSLY WATCH MULAN AGAIN IF POSSIBLE!!
PPS: Bon voyage, Liqi! (enjoy your china exchange prog)
PPPS: I'm so nervous for results day. SIGH. ): When is it btw? holy crap.
This song was played after th movie.
The trailer of Mulan. |
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| I can't agree more to this. |
[Nov. 30th, 2009|04:55 pm] |
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| | Dan Fogelberg- Longer | ] |
''Missing someone isn’t about how long it has been since you have seen them or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something and you wish that they were right there with you."
But i'm silly for missing people at times out of no reasons. ^^
PS: I think it's more of a blessing to be able to give than to take. Dontcha' agree? C:
xoxo |
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| IMPROV EVERYWHERE |
[Nov. 29th, 2009|08:08 pm] |
IMPROV EVERYWHERE ROCKS. TTM.
I wanna join in too if there's one in singapore. Or perhaps there already is but i'm not invited? *laughs*
So anyone doing any improvs, bring me along and invite me.
I'm sure i'll be th first one to join whenever i'm free.
Here are some that i like...
Frozen people. whooo! Look at th faces of those outsiders.
A fake hypnotism performance complete with real audience on streets. Hypnotising and running off. LOL
Foodcourt musical. COOL SHITS.
Or how about a I LOVE LUNCH MUSCIAL?!
IF YOU WANNA WATCH MORE: http://www.youtube.com/user/ImprovEverywhere
There's loads of nice ones! ^^
PS: I FEEL LIKE GOING DISNEYLAND!!!
PPS: But first, i need a good camera for myself before going anywhere interesting... (: |
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| Contented everyday, small lil blessings makes me whole |
[Nov. 29th, 2009|03:35 pm] |
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| |  thankful | ] |
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| | Fireflies-Owl City | ] |
I don't know where to start blogging from seriously.
I just stared th screen blankly cos' there's just too much to write here yet too lil to express.
26th November 09(Thursday)
Had meeting for th volunteery work at night.
27th November 09(Friday)
Woke up at 5.30am. ( I KNOW BUT I JUST HAVE TO EMPHASIZE THIS COS' IT'S SO EARLY)
Got ready and moved out for vegetarian breakfast @ guan yin zai(yums) & headed to foohai.
The day started and was busy th whole day throughout, busy preparing for those taking th 8 precepts (their meals and their chu bo) It was a tiring but happy day. (I <3 volunteery jobs) Ate lunch there and rested, had th overall meeting with everyone and went for th talk by th nun till 4.30. Left and followed mum along to her working place at hsbc(raffles) cos' she had so many urgent trades to be completed even though it was public holiday.
Well, it was an eye opener for me seriously! Never would i ever think and see how offices in bank looked like. The hsbc looks so high classed and stressful at th same time. I could actually feel th immense pressure in there if i was working there. It's just so scary and frightening to work in such an environment, a BANK that has endless jobs for th working people to do. You'll just have to put down all th work behind you when it's time to let go. Well anyways, th whole place looks so posh and rich, comfortable, so classy, elegant, cold(as in th air con) and cruel at th same time.
I swear working in th bank will be my last option if all th jobs in th world wouldn't let me in. ):
28th November 09(Saturday)
What a day! Needless to say but th day was good. Anyways, i've decided to reload all my food at home for th next pass 2 weeks or 1 week at home in holidays period now. I don't want to wake up hungry everyday and wondering what to eat when there's just simply nothing at home but unhealthy ones(like for example instant noodles yucks!). So i've decided to go down ntuc to get loads of delicious healthy food. Went down with mummy and practically gone mad. Bought quite a number of it.
1 box of mushroom pizza(2 inside), 1 packet of organic udon(3 bunch), 3 small pckts of organic instant pumpkin soup(to try out first), 2 tubs of walls ice cream(peppermint & choco nuts), 1 box of blueberry morning cereal, 1 carton of soya milk not so sweet, 2 tubs of brownrice tea with ginseng(i slept super well ystd after drinking it at night), 2 glass bottles of mushroom tomato sauces for pastas and a pckt of 3 in 1 milo to donate for th boy's bridgage fund box.
I think this can last me for 1 week. Yes. :DD
On a bad sidenote, i realise i gained weight!!! Ö
Sigh. I'm now 49kg. That's th result for holidays. I eat too much i think? I always indulge on night meals even despite eating a full course dinner. shit. But it's good in a sense? I don't want to be underweight. Checked my BMI previously when i was 46/7kg to th height and i should gain weight. Well, now idk if i shuld be happy or not? How contradict! =/ I think i should go for a jog in th evening later with sissy. ^^
29th November 09(Sunday)
As for today, i nuahed. Nuahing in th process...
Woke up at 1.30. ): Missed my glorious breakfast i always luv. ):
& Ate lots of yummy food just now. I'm currently having a nervous feeling. Because now it's near th end of nov and that means dec is arriving in a few days time which also means my n lvl results are coming out. I'm so anxious and afraid.
URGH. I hate this feeling. I hate results day! madness. im going bonkers man. sigh.
Life goes on....
PS: I'm so gonna get a camera soon and that sponge thing.
''The difficulties of life are intended to make us better & stronger, not bitter. '' シ |
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| KATE VOEGELE FTW! |
[Nov. 24th, 2009|10:57 pm] |
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I can't resist but i have to blog this.
I'm officially addicted to Kate Voegele songs!
Currently i'm stuck with Forever And Almost Always & It's only life in my head.
So i thought of sharing this. ^^
Forever and almost always
So the story goes on down
The less travelled road
It's a variation on
The one I was told
And although it's not the same
It's awful close, yeah.
In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing.
So you'll be mine
Forever And Almost Always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can, yeah
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care.
In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head.
Oh and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would
When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook.
Because you're mine
Forever And Almost Always
When I'm fine
Just love me when you can, yeah
And i'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care.
Oh, oh, what am I still doing here?
Oh, oh, oh, it's all becoming so clear, yeah.
You'll be mine
Forever And Almost Always
It ain't right
to just love me when you can, oh
I wont wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care.
Forever And Almost Always
No it ain't right
To just love me when you can, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care, oh.
It's only life
Tears are forming in your eyes
A storm is warning in the sky
The end of the world it seems
You bend down and you fall on your knees
Well get back on your feet yeah
Don't look away
Don't run away
Hey baby it's only life
Don't lose your faith
Don't run away
Hey baby its only life
Yea it's only life
You were always playing hard
Never could let down your guard
But you can't win
If you never give in
To that voice within
Saying pick up your chin
Baby let go of it
[Chorus]
Take your hesitance
And your self-defense
Leave them behind, it's only life
Don't be so afraid
Of facing everyday
Just take your time, it's only life
I'll be your stepping-stone
No, don't be so alone
Just hold on tight, it's only life
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[Nov. 24th, 2009|03:16 pm] |
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| | Rihanna - Hate That I Love You | ] |
PS: Btw, i just changed my settings for my comments.
Everyone can comment here regardless if you're not using a livejournal account.
Feel free to express your thoughts in any posts if you feel a like mindedness with it. (:
xoxo |
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| LOVE IS LIKE BREATHING UNDERWATER, fall even deeper with you & never come up... |
[Nov. 23rd, 2009|09:57 pm] |
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| |  Lovey Dovey | ] |
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| | Breathing Underwater- Marié Digby | ] |
Had been addicted to a song stuck in my head recently. Luv it ttm. :DD
Luv is like breathing underwater as you fall even deeper and never wanting to come up.
You'll feel weightless,
your heart flies,
you feel like as if the whole world's smaller except you and your luv.
Your luv just keeps going and never want it to pause or end it.
Life seems to be filled with joyy and satisfaction,
such adoring luv you wanna come back for more if you haven't had enough of it,
which seems to me more of greed...
but it's such lovely greediness. |
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| 2 Fruitful days |
[Nov. 23rd, 2009|06:38 pm] |
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| | grateful | ] |
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| | Underwater Breathing-Marié Digby | ] |
Saturday(21st) was a hectic and tiring but fruitful day spent in town @ outside taka(ngee ann city) for children's charity event. I would luv to say thankq to everyone who supported this event. The event started early in th morning and i was th least sleepy despite having only 5 hours of sleep th night before. (: Lil did i expect that Jiahui was there helping too. She represented her school to help out in that event. Was really happy to see her there and best is, she came over to support me by buying ice creams from our new zealand push carts and even brought along her friends to buy. Thank you so much! ^^
I was incharge of promoting and taking orders and it was kinda tough seriously. I had to remember orders from th customers and pass th msg to th 2 people who's scooping th ice creams. My mum was the scooper for th day with her friend. Edward was handling th cash th whole time of course. Just to introduce to you guys, his th head of passion bonders of ren ci. We had many people from passion bonders who joined in and helped out in th event. Th tiring thing of this was that i stood whole day long throughout and talked so much non stop. I had to keep my temper down when some difficult customers comes & give problems. Luckily there were bottles of water for th dry mouth of mine. But i was proud of myself for helping all th way and i definitely learned and benefited from this tremendously in many ways.
Anyways, i treated myself to douple scoop ice creams twice in th middle. No doubt, our ice cream sold really well thanks to th brand of new zealand and th savouring taste of it. Many customers came back for more and more... Heh :B
The flavours that we picked to sell was chocolate ecstasy, cookies n cream, strawberry, walnut butterscotch, forest berry(yoghurt) & berry something(i forgot). :P Simply luv th feeling of accomplishments but th best was th experience itself. We're th clear winner from our rival who sold ice cream too from MARBLE SLAB ICE CREAM. Our ice creams were sold out th earliest really fast like arnd 4pm while th rest of th stalls were still trying their best to sell their different items. We even had many many customers who came and wanted to buy from us while we were alrdy busy packing and washing th stuffs.
They looked into th push cart fridge and found to their dissapointment that there ain't anymore ice creams. The first flavour that was sold out first was cookies n cream followed by chocolate ecstasy and strawberry. :DDDD The popular demands of most people and some even came looking for chocolate flavour but it was sold out long ago.
My legs were so tired of th standing and when i came home my body felt hot(the ones when you really overworked too much).
But it was all worthwhile. This event is really fruitful and it helps 6 organisations to raise funds for th physically disabled children etc.
It was one of th best volunteery work i'd done. ^^
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Sunday(22nd) was another fruitful day. Went ren ci to do volunteery work and i really luv all th old folks there since day one. (: Had a reflective thought all of a sudden. He didn't eat and cheat any money. He ain't guilty of anything and this is th truth. Many news and reports were all really exaggerating and they didn't state facts. Anyways, i'll just let it be and pray. Buddha, Bodhisatvas and the triple gems will bless him. He has done so much and put in so much effort into this. Th innocent should not deserve such treatment and things. Will just continue supporting him at th back regardless on anything. How ignorant outsiders and strangers see into this case in their own selfish and self centred point of view. Foolish and stupid how nowadays city people have no wisdom.
Anyways, after th volunteery work, headed to bfy for th session immediately. Thanks dad for driving me there! When i headed to th rocanna room it was packed and filled with many youths. Okay, i joined in th middle when they were debating. The topic was ''Should Buddhist evangelise the dharma?'' After everything had our usual group bonding(sariputta). Sadly, we were kicked out of th dance for th 21st anniversary cos' there were too many ppl in it. I feel kinda insulted in a way cos those who just joined in were part of it. We learned th whole dance alrdy. Well, i shall diminish my anger slowly from now on. What's not yours is never yours. Nyways, after the whole session, sissy and i headed to vivo for subway, tracy's organic juices(bought wheat black soya) and daiso. Sissy was giddy in daiso cos of th arrangements of things that's displayed! *laughs* Was crazy in daiso cos' i practically wanted to buy loads of things. Ended up buying different shades of blue nail polishes, a red heart shape cup for my brushing teeth and a straw basket to put my nail polishes inside.
So yeah, th day went on really fun. :) |
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| LEARN TO LET GO. |
[Nov. 20th, 2009|03:22 pm] |
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| | Boston-Augustana | ] |
Peace of mind is not the absence of conflict from life, but the ability to cope with it.
I think this is really true. I should apply this in my life. I often run away from conflicts or troubles or bad situations rather than coping and dealing with th problem bravely. Like what i always remember th quote from Ven. Shen Yen in one of his books.
''Face it, accept it, deal with it and let it go.'' 
It's one of th hardest things to do and achieve.
Maybe or perhaps the first 3 is easy but it's never easy to let go.
I spot this on Tiny Buddha's twitter that leads me to the website.
Instantly, i felt that this is something nice to share to everyone. (:
40 Ways to Let Go and Feel Less Pain
http://tinybuddha.com/blog/40-ways-to-let-go-and-feel-less-pain/
[A gentle reminder]
Sticky note: Come down to takashimaya(ngee ann city) 2 support and buy th new zealand ice cream from passion bonders for kids charity tmr! Your support and luv is most appreciated. The whole event will start from early morning till evening arnd 5/6pm. Do come down tmr if you're free. ^^ I'll be helping out too. (: |
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| Letting go is a form of wisdom. |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|01:53 pm] |
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| | Bad romance- Lady Gaga | ] |
Some people think it's holding on that makes one strong. But most of the time it's letting go that makes one stronger with wisdom.
I can't agree more than this. :D
- Saturday will head to town (outside taka and ngee ann city) to help out in th kids charity. From early morning till evening 5/6pm. And will head to fhyg gathering at night from 7.30-9.15.
Note: Please come down to support and buy th new zealand ice cream from passion bonders to help raise funds. Do show some luv and support if you're free. Thanks guys! C: Your support is most appreciated.
Anyways, yesterday was another great night at buddhist class. Always learned so much and recall stuffs i learn previously. It's a good ol' recap on how to deal with my inner thoughts and feelings too. Whatever we feel, think, how bad th situations are, it's controlled and judged by ones mind, own perspective & thoughts. You'll never know how th other party really and genuinely thinks and feels. So let's stop judging others and make assumptions so quickly. So frequently, we always get so offended or irritated or feel sad just by words that others had spoken that u felt so affected inside you. Or probably just by th behaviour or look/stare that u start assuming that he/she doesn't like u or treat u mean. Often after making your own assumptions and judgements, you feel really unhappy, sad, angsty, pissed off. Most of th time, judging from your own perspectives and assumptions that u made most of th time, it's always being judged wrongly and it only cause you to feel so sucky which leads to sufferings inside you. So th only way to lead a happier life is to stop judging and not make assumptions so fast. You'll never know that you're actually th one who's the culprit to living life so miserably. The person who you assume that made u suffer inside may not even be aware of it and that just makes u silly right? No one can make u suffer only yourself.
Dontcha think so?
I have no more words to write here. Enough said. ^^
On a sidenote: I want to get a digital camera soooooon and change my whole writing style here.
Peace out lovely sentient beings!
xoxo
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| LIST OF THINGS I WISH TO DO |
[Nov. 17th, 2009|05:58 pm] |
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| |  hopeful | ] |
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| | Everything-Michael Buble | ] |
- Dye my hair
- Paint my nails like 小宇
- Buy a camera
- Pack my messy + dirty room
- Stop buying clothes atm
- Cycling at pasir ris park
- Head for movie with Joni *laughs*
- Get outta Singapore! Tour!
- Get all the birthday celebrations done. (sissy, liqi, bishan, siqi)
- Science centre visit please!
PS: I've decided to change my way of my own style to write my blog when i purchase a camera. The small pleasures and contentments in life i will share through pictures with a short phrase or paragraph. (: And i might change my skin layout and delete past entries to start afresh with this blog. I want a more artistic way of writing. A sudden inspiration and feeling... to express my feelings through pictures. Not faces but things i appreciate. Like a celebration of the little pleasures of my life whether it's positive+/negative-. :D |
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| COTTON ON CLOTHES FTW! |
[Nov. 15th, 2009|02:05 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | Lollipop-Ben Kweller | ] |
Went to BISHAN early morning ystd with momo, went to th clinic for a regular yearly check up and head to BISHAN junction 8 for pastamania and some retail therapy. And i officially want to say that COTTON ON is my new found luv. I was in the shop happily picking out loads of clothes and i bought loadssssssss and it only adds $104 plus. When i say loads i mean REALLY A LOT. :) It's cheap and th clothes are so topshop feel. Really, it's worth buying. And I realise i found th type of dress that fits my body types already. ^^
- Tomorrow out with momo for retail therapy and pizzahut.
- Saturday will be kids charity outside TAKA at the ngee ann city. Please show your support and compassion. Come and buy new zealand ice cream from us passion bonders. (:
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| FRIDAY TH 13! |
[Nov. 13th, 2009|01:08 pm] |
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| | full | ] |
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| | Officially missing you- Sonia and Janice version | ] |
Today is Friday th 13th! Enjoy your day! C:
I had a good and smooth one. Don't believe in superstitions and myths.
To all sentient beings,
hope y'all be happy, well and free from sufferings at any where, any corner of th earth now. |
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